Muahahaha, why am i writing this earlier, cos i wanna talk about it before i really publish this post on the date of completion. At least i have written what i wanted to write about it.

Ahhhhhh, this all began somewhere in the beginning of July, not long after coming back from the trip to Redang. Hahahahaha, it was the very first time i was getting it done, the very first session. Hahahahaha, i was eager, yet i was also afraid. He was explaining it to me as to how things are kept clean and stuff and also how the process will undergo. Owh i was kinda scared as he was explaining it to me. I could even hear my heart beating soooo fast. He was telling me not to worry and even told me that i dont have to be scared. Hahahahaha, i havent say what it is yet isnt it.

Well, it is actually my brand new tattoo. Yes you heard me correct a tattoo, on my back. Hahahaha, and even though it is my first. It is mighty big for the first one to be inked onto my skin. I didnt realize the magnitude of the size, but i was very happy with the design that i wanted to be inked on my back. Hahahaha, after the design was set, he started to the machine, cranking it up, and starting to line my back. That was the first time i felt the intense pain from when the machine came in contact with my skin. It was then i realized the pain that comes with the great masterpiece.

After the first 5 minutes or so, i couldnt stand it anymore. And i needed a break. I know i know that is a short time to take a break. But for the first time, i had a tough time adjusting to the pain. And sooo i took about 5 minutes break before continuing for the next two hours or sooo. The pain was intense because he was doing the outlines. Which uses the liners which is the single needles.

Owh, i forgot to mention, that the guy who is doing my tattoo is named Eddy, i shorten his name because i dont think i should expose his name here in my blog. He is 1 of the 3 tattoo artist working in that particular shop which i would decline to name in this space. All the 3 tattoo artist are siblings, and Eddy is the eldest among the 3 with the other 2 named S and L. They a bunch of funny people and really such an easy going bunch of people. Eddy, has been tattooing for 10 years now, and i am glad that i am in his professional hands. The other 2 came to learn from him. He had his trials and errors with his frens.

I also get to enjoy alot of story from him since Eddy is such a lively person and loves to talk to me while he is inking me. Sooo we talk and this sure make times past by sooo fast. And it doesnt hurt as much. As he is much older than i am, he has much more experience n thus i learn soo much from him.

Ahhhh Sue is always there to see me get tattooed. except for the 9th session which was the recent session i just went to. I dunno about the future. The reason why she didnt see me get tattooed on the 9th session was bcos she had to leave me so that she can do her assignment, leaving me to get tattooed and then taking a taxi back home. Hahahaha.

Well, back to the pain and the endurance, well i have to say, i have been doing it for 9 sessions now, with an average of 2 hours per session. Sooo that is about how much pain of being tattooed. But not forgetting the pain after getting tattooed is also there, and there is this itch and pain that comes together on the areas which were just tattooed, its a kind of pain that really shocks me. Soo in total, i beared a hell of alot of pain, but it is not continuous pain. And sooo i rationalise the pain with the pain that the female counterpart shall endure during natural childbirth. But i realize that there is a bunch of girls who are gonna opt for ceaserean section, which would mean that they wont feel as much pain. Would they ? ? ?

Well, anyhows, i know that within this period of getting tattoed, owhh its been 2 months plus now since the time i write this part of this post. I shall continue again another time, because this whole entire post shall be about my tattoo, and as to how it came about, and other details that i would include with it later on. Soooo to be continued ............................. 22/09/2006


This is the continuation of the current post, though it hasnt been a single session since the last time i blogged, but there is a few things dat i think i forgot to mention in the earlier post, is that my tattoo, has a special meaning to it. There isn't really a definitive meaning to it, just that it kinda holds the basic concept of my principles in life. I dont really know what else to write at the moment, since i have a writer's block. So i shall conitnue it on another day after i have resolved a few of my daily problems..................... unknown date


This post is bad, there is no continuity of the post. It is written over time several times over a certain period of time. This posts, is 1 day before the last or 2nd last appointment to complete my tattoo. It is time to get my facts right about my wings and start explaining about my wings to my tattoo artist. It was a blast doing the last 10 sessions. A blast of pain, itch and even more pain. It was also a blast of great conversations and a great time listening to people talk alot and alot of crap. Finally it is nearly finishing or finishing, it all depends tomorrow. With this final, or the 1 before the final session, the meaning of the wing shall be reveal to my tattoo artist. Hahahaha it is indeed beautiful, but i have received some comments about it and would like to ask my tattoo artist, Eddy to see and ask him what could i do with it.

There are alot of photos of my tattoo from the beginning of it being inked onto my body, the time in between, and the finally the end. They were some of the greatest moment of my life. With the beginning on the 7th of July 2006, it is the biggest tattoo for anyone to do for their 1st tattoo, it will end either tomorrow or on a later date. Well it was a great long journey that was suppose to start after my exams. Which would be after the 21st of Nov 2006 which is this month. But to think that it took me this long to complete thus far is really not what i had in mind. I had it done on the 7th of July due to the significance of the 07/07, but too bad the end ended with a 06. Well it was an almost jackpot.

I did mention earlier that my tattoo holds a special hidden meaning to it. Well indeed it does, and it is how i perceive the world and how i would act and react in living my life. If you see properly there are a pair of wings, but there is an angel's wing which is bound by breaking belts and the other wing is a devil's wing that is bound by breaking chains. Well to tell you the truth, the wings representation would change over time. So it is better just to ask me straight what it means. But when it is finally completed.

Owhhh i always get this, ' Ehh you get wings so that you can fly ar?'. Well i cant fly la, the wings are bound, how to fly? Well i would say that is about it. There isn't much for me to say already about my wings. Bounded wings to be more precise. Soooo enjoy the pics, and ignore the butt cracks !!! Those butt cracks are courtesy of miss Sue.






This would be the finishing touch of this post, and is the last to be typed on this post. This would be the finale for this post. I think i did mention that i would not mention the story behind my wings. Maybe i will. Call it a sudden change of mind. Though it may not be the whole absolute story behind it, but it is the main gist of the story. So shall i begin the story of this dark path !?!?

It all began many years ago when i started to day dream myself with wings, which suddenly become a wing. That is on the left side of my body. Then i started to day dream that i had another wing, which is a collection of many swords, knifes, and sharp objects that can cut, that resembles the likeness of an arm. This day dream continued on for awhile.

It was then i wanted to get my left angel wing done 1st. So i went to the place that Sue had her tattoo done, and waited to be attended to. And it so happens that Eddy, the eldest of the 3 siblings who works as the tattoo artist came out and talk to me about my design for the tattoo. And i told him that i wanted a wing. Not a pair of wings but only 1 wing. It was then he told me that it would look mighty weird with only 1 wing on my back. Then suddenly i was struck by a wave of inspiration to do a pair of wings, a angel's wing and an devil's wing. I told this to Eddy, then it struck me that it would not fit the the requirements of the wings i wanted then it struck me again, another inspiration to add the bindings of the belts and chains respectively.

Then he agreed on doing the design for me, and tattooing me on the coming 1st session.

That is how i got the wings. But im not too sure to give you the meaning behind the wings. Maybe in point forms about the meaning.

• Angel's wing - do good, but restraint from doing too much good, because sometimes doing good can be bad. The belts is a representation of the restraint that is put on doing good to others.
  
• Devil's wing - do evil, even less frequent compared to the good that was done, because not all evil things are meant to harm others, but may help others. There is this saying that "We sometimes have to be mean to be kind".The chains is also a reminder of the greater consequences of doing the wrong deed. This is because it seems to me that people would tend to remember other people because of the wrong-doings instead of the good deeds.
  
• Both the wings, having different from each other is a reminder to me of the mix heritage i come from. Though i don't practice as much 1 of the heritage i come from.
  
• Both the wings is a reminder to myself, that i am a freak who does not totally conform with society of the differences i see in myself from the rest of the society.
  
• The wings are my form of rebellion against a sensitive issue, something that starts with the same letter as the word above.
  

This are the main meaning behind my wings. There are others in my mind, but those are the few main points that i would like to stress on.

Thank you for reading this far. I hope you enjoy this long post of mine.