Racism flows through my very veins. The very thought of racism is really building within my head. Or is it my own instinct of hatred towards certain people. I have this intense hatred for a certain few people upon seeing their unforgiving face. I have this problem, and its proving to me that i am a fucking racist. This is due to the fact that i see some of those dark skin colored typical of those Indians it makes me feel like i want to kill them or something. There is something about them that me loath them to their very guts. It is something unexplainable. There are a few faces of whom i wish to kill!!! Their faces is the most annoying of all. Arghhhh I WANNA KILL THEM !!!!

Yes finally that is off my chest. I am admitting the racist side of me. I am sure to get murdered by those remarks. But its really something about them that makes me hate them to the very core of their guts. It has something to do with their fucking faces. Their face triggers me to hate them so much till i want to kill them off. Maybe some of their characteristics as well. Thinking about them also makes me wanna puke in hatred. Waahhhhhhh, this is what i shall call the extreme hate face factor.

Alright, now moving on with the next thing is the 'name' story. I am pretty sure that someone will be pretty pissed at what i will write here after this sentence, but it shall be a part of my online web journal for my own reading as well as the selected few to read it.

This post shall reveal all the names involved, which is only me and the offender miss Angeline Tang Pui Yee. This is the story of where the offender said that she had totally forgot my name but had remembered my girlfriend's name. I find that extremely insulting to the fact that i studied with the offender for one entire semester in the same class, and yet she forgotten my name after she forgot how to spell it during that semester and i made her remember it to the very exact spelling. The insult was the fact that she could remember the name of my girlfriend's name whom she isn't very close to and forgot my name. Indeed it was a great insult to me. The below was the MSN message that relayed between the both of us.

Miss Tang Pui Yee: hi

Me: helo

Miss Tang Pui Yee: hmmmm

Me: ???

Miss Tang Pui Yee: i kind of forgot your name ......wait...you are ....but i know how you look like

Miss Tang Pui Yee: i know your gf

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ;s name

Me: thank you bye bye

Miss Tang Pui Yee: hhahahha

Miss Tang Pui Yee: wai twait

Miss Tang Pui Yee: what are you doing now

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: studying ah

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Me: cleaning room

Miss Tang Pui Yee: wahhhh

Miss Tang Pui Yee: such a good man to clean your own room

Miss Tang Pui Yee: sure you have some party last night lar

Me: really ??

Me: how do u know i had a party lst night ? ? ? even i dunno wor ...

Miss Tang Pui Yee: just messing with you

Miss Tang Pui Yee: so, start all your assignments?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: heyyy, who else got go australia , i mean from vu malaysia

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: cause i know that elaine and mei ling , not in malaysia

Me: elaine ... no

Me: mei ling .. yes

Me: assignments .. all finished

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ohhh

Miss Tang Pui Yee: so good

Miss Tang Pui Yee: finished already ?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: what's the time there in aus?

Me: its now 9.50

Me: finished ... well if it is finished im god

Me: streamyx dun work

Me: they rip u off

Miss Tang Pui Yee: why you say such thing ah

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Me: cos they just do

Miss Tang Pui Yee: hmmmmm

Me: yes go ponder ....

Miss Tang Pui Yee: you are a bit bad

Miss Tang Pui Yee: no... i mean real bad

Me: arent u stupid .... if im not bad then its not me

Miss Tang Pui Yee: whatever

Me: hahahaha

Miss Tang Pui Yee: i think you are the one who is stupid ...because you go around telling people that they are stupid.....but you never look at your bad and stupid side

Me: indeed i am stupid .... or else how could i make everyone else look stupid u dumb fuck

Miss Tang Pui Yee: what's the dumb and fuck words

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: you offended me first, ok

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: i never offend you in any way

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ............

Me: owh ... u indeed has offended me in many ways .... but u just dun realize it .... u trying to prove ur innocense indeed proves ur stupidity !

Miss Tang Pui Yee: what kind of innocence

Miss Tang Pui Yee: ?

Miss Tang Pui Yee: how may i had offended you?

Me: this proves ur ignorance as well .... cant stop laughing at u ... indeed .. u have offended me in many ways, but im not 1 to point it out ... bcos to argue with you is like arguing with a wall .... such a waste of time ...

Miss Tang Pui Yee: well, since its such a waste of time, then i would not want to waste your time.... i did really forgot your name...but, i expected you not to take the matter in heart ... however, if you do , i would not do anything, or say anything....since you already had the thought of me offending you , without you yourself looking at your bad and wrongs.... everyone has bad and wrong....

Miss Tang Pui Yee: so , if you just want to go around and say fuck and stupid to people, do it , but not to me

Miss Tang Pui Yee: byebye


That was the MSN chat that i had with her before she went offline by the time i got back from dying my clothes. So in response to her last few words, i had laughed at her response in her last few words, but i just had to give a proper reply. So i wrote a long long email. I forgot the content of the email, but it goes as below. (The green is me and the blue is Miss Tang Pui Yee)

Hello fuckwit indeed. If you ever have a dictionary you can always look it up. Well I know you have been raised pretty well with all those special teachings. But your slanderous words are indeed how you sometimes offend people, but yet you find the ‘fuck’ word more offending? How stupid can you be! In this world and age, the word has been so commonly used that it has multiple meanings with any other addition of words. But of course you wouldn’t know that because you chose not to know that with your special teachings. I for one can foresee how close minded you are, and I know there are many fitting other people who share your ideals.

But of course, that is you and not me and of course name is very important for most people. Unless you prefer me calling you fuckwit all the time do you? You have been in the same class with me in the previous semester, but yet you could not remember my name. This is a total utter disgrace to me as you even told me you could remember my girlfriend’s name and not mine. But of course, it seems as though it is your god-given-talent to forget my name isn’t it. I would say wonderful.

So till the day you remember my name, then I shall call you fuckwit.

Thank you very much getting this out of my chest, because it seems to me as though there aren’t many people who tell you off about your wrong doings. Indeed I know of my wrong-doings, but I choose to do them on my own free will you fuckwit. So have fun in your uni days, because of you were to continue with this kind of attitude, and this way of slandering people, then by all means do so as people around you will hate your fucking guts. But people won’t say it. Of course I am not one of them because I am to face you straight in the face you fuckwit about how I think of you and your slanderous means.

Cheers.

That is the exact words i used in my email to her, unedited and raw of course the title of the email was "Hello fuckwit". Indeed it is a nice word to get her attention. Hahahaha and within less than 1 minute after i send out the email, i receive this response from her.

WhatEVER..... JUst whaT iF your PArenTS call YOu FUcKwit 24-7....??????????

Of course i could see that this response was totally out of anger, and i had a great big laugh before replying her with this:

Well of course they wont since they know my name. Unlike you which is your god-given-talent to forget my name, so of course i shall call you fuckwit till you remember my name fuckwit!

Hahahaha, it was just a blow after another blow, it was alot of fun for me indeed. Of course her reply was still as fast as ever with my name, but still wrongly spelled. With all her might she was able to remember my name after being called a fuckwit so many times. Indeed it is a miracle, and the email goes something like this:

so,,,here is your name.....elywn

A short and simple email from here. Hail the abilities of the four letter word!! Of course i replied in a calm manner. Hahahaha with this:

at least you got all the letters correct, but of course you still made the same mistake as marcus did. Even i don't apologise for that, but since you remembered almost correct, i shall not call you that name anymore. But be warned, your slanderous means will always be the reason why your guts will be hated.

Of course it was meant to correct her. And it continues on with her attempts on spelling my name correctly. Let me show you what i mean:

WhatEver....Alywn....

Of course i just had to reply to that with:

your stupidity reigns again. All of your answers has been filled with anger. Not a way to handle problems like this. Of course you got it wrong again!

And she was trying again to get it correct by spelling it wrongly the 1st time she got my name:

elywn

and of course i had to correct her wrong ways with:

the letters are correct just the positioning of the letters of course ... that was wat i meant in my earlier reply, but you were too angry and stupid to understand that.

And finally she got it correct, and spelling my name correctly, "elwyn". Hahaha truly i replied her with this:

owh finally you got it correct. Hooray for miss tang pui yee. May she rest in peace.

And then i suddenly received an email from her stating:

its kind of tiring to open your mail...but i got your name right...

Of course i had to reply with this:

But you are the one who acted out of anger, and replied so fast with only such profound words. Indeed this is the real tang pui yee. Now i know.

and her final statements were "GRrRRRR!!!!!!!!!"


And that how the name story goes. It is how someone totally insulted me and had a payback about it. Of course it is full of vulgarity, if not then it isn't me. Hahaha, yes i know i am a sick bastard for doing so. Well it goes to show that vulgarity mix with patience is indeed a way to wage full on war against such person!


Alright alright, it is time for me to talk about my loose pants. Yes all of my pants is very loose, even to the point that some of my points were falling off, without anyone pulling down. It is falling to floor as i walk. It passed my waist and going all the way down. Muahahaha, i wonder how could i loose so much weight. Indeed maybe because of my bad eating behaviour. Must be that. Is this the result of not eating as much as i used to when i was back in malaysia, and also the fact that i don't really bother finding food when i am hungry in the library. Hahahah i am always there to use the free internet of course! Hahaha a change of lifestyle now. Now i think my stomach has even shrunk within 1 week. This fact is proven by the incident where i couldn't finish my medium sized hungry jack's value meal when i used to eat a large meal about the time when i just got here. Hahaha a shrunken stomach!! And sooo i have to gain more weight to make sure my pants could be worn by me in the future!!!

Alright la, it is time to post this post anywayz. I will be posting some pics soon enough i guess. Hahahaha