Life is really troublesome indeed. How is it to say that it is not troublesome at all? As a part of my independence i realize that life is never been easy. And with the fact that i have to cook for myself and myself alone really got me thinking, is it worthwhile to cook just for myself alone? To prepare to cook, about 5-10 mins, and then cooking about 10-15 mins, and the eating 5-10 mins, and then cleaning up about 10-15 mins, seems rather pointless isn't it? Thats the point of junk food isn't it? Well yeah i have been eating a great deal of junk food, cheap junk food, that was on offer of course such as chips and also nutella. Of course i have recently received a comment stating that i seem to be dropping alot of hair and of course this made me realize that my hair has gotten thinner since the time back in m'sia. And i realize, i am going bald !!! I am going BOTAK !!! Indeed this is bad. At first i thought that i only had just lost my weight, but instead now i realize that i am also losing my hair !!!

Owh, i am losing alot of stuff isn't it? Am i destined to lose more things in the future? I have a feeling that it would be the case for me. But we shall have to see what goes on from here on out. Cooking healthily is a problem, and for that i am losing weight. Not eating and also eating unhealthily also is a problem, as i am losing my hair. What else am i going to lose? My pride? My home? My future? Myself? Or ultimately my life? Well, that i can never tell isn't it? No one can predict the future.

Independence would also mean that i have to take care of myself, and i know that the following day after i typed out this post, is a hell of a long day for me as i have alot of chores to do including of, doing laundry of my clothes, my socks and also changing bedsheet, and wiping the floor, cleaning the freezer from frost, organize my room nice of all the food and other stuffs and finally at night walk 20-25 mins to Coles to buy my groceries and also walk back! I am not willing to pay for my transport. Yes call me stingy, but that is how i am. Only Coles is considered walking distance from my place as the Highpoint Shopping Center is a little too far for me to head there. Hahahaha, i have alot of shit to do, but i seem to be procrastinating a whole lot!

Procrastination and also laziness shall be my ultimately killers. I am already at a lost here in Australia with the fact that i failed for one of my test, that is CA!!! Hahaha i FAILED!!! Hardcore, no study means no way of passing, but my tutor was kind enough to give me an extra mark to pass me. Why am I lost, well it is because i dunno what the fuck am i suppose to do when i graduate. Indeed i am doomed isn't it? But of course, i am. Wooohoooooo i am doomed !!! What paths do i have in my life now? Hahaha, i have to pave new paths for myself don't i. Alright !!!!

Hahaha troubles of life again! Indeed. Hahahaha, crap crap!!! Nevermind la, i am going on to crap myself through life again with all the crap that has been thrown at me. Alright time to let the shit go!

FUCK !!!!!

Alright, feeling a little better, see ya !